36 Weeks (Appointment)

As THE Day gets nearer, I'm feeling more tense and stressed up. Maybe due to boredom, I'm getting impatience. I whined. A lot.

Today's check up, and again, baby's hand blocking partial of her face. Her round nose is so obvious during the scan. She gained a shocking 800gram just in two weeks!

(Previous weight was 1.9kg, and today 2.6kg!!!)

Doctor says, whatever weight I am gaining now all goes to her directly. So I can eat more, since we have decided to undergo C-section. FYI, baby was in breech position last week and now back to normal. So it's kind dangerous that she keeps turning like that, so we shall not wait any further.

It can be dangerous for baby to be rotating like that as she may get tangled by her own umbilical cord.

We have chosen the earliest possible date, 12th August 2014, which falls on the week 38th of my pregnancy. Nurse will arrange for the operation theater and stuff, if everything is smooth, the operation will start at 9am.

Baby Bump Photos

I refuse to engage a maternity photographer cuz I really don't see a need to spend that few hundred bucks when I have the equipment at home. Hubbs agreed with me and promise to take some pictures for me as a memorial.

SENTOSA HERE WE COME !!! 

(PS: All photos taken by Hubbs!!!)

Look at how much he is perspiring for me !!! *love*

And lastly...

Baby Chloe, see you in three weeks time !!!

Randomies

Random photos from previous gaigai session... 

I don't know why but my tummy looks small in photos!!!

AND THE DOGS REFUSE PHOTO WITH ME!!!

(PS: I'm wearing a black shorts)

34 Weeks (Appointment)

Depress, depress, depress !
Well, I shall start off with what happened last night!

Baby bean was moving harshly throughout the night. And all her movements were so obvious that it squashed my stomach, intestine and everything inside. I totally feel unwell and whined to hubbs. For the very first time, baby bean moved the whole night. And I didn't, and couldn't, sleep at all. My tummy just keep moving and moving like an octopus trying to escape the fish net.

Hubbs saw all the movements with his own eyes.
And it followed with a sharp pain in my tummy, near belly button area.

So. When morning came, I told hubbs that something is not right. I felt that baby bean has turned through all the movements. Hubbs assured me that everything will be well and we will see the doctor tonight.

For the whole day, I was feeling unwell.
The sharp pain I mentioned earlier remains painful, as if there is a bruise from inside.
It limits my movements since twitching my waist a little hurts too.

And the first thing I saw my gynae, was to complain to him about the sharp pain and I pointed to him the area. Here comes the ultra scan... The first point of contact he made to the tummy was the sharp pain area, and HOLY!!! the head is there.

Baby bean actually squeezed her way through from engaged position, back to upright sitting position. She was snuggling comfortably, back facing the ultra scan camera. Good girl uh!

So, today no photo again since we can only see her brain, and limbs.

I am currently 66.7kg and only gained about 200g since two weeks ago. Baby bean was 1.77kg at 32weeks, and today 1.97kg. Seems like my weight gained has gone to her.

Appetite has gone down especially when she toss and turn like Jackie Chan during my meal time. It makes me feel pukish and I can't finish my food. Plus now her head is headbutting my gastric, it makes things worst. I keep feeling a huge lump supporting my gastric and I have difficulty breathing hard and sitting down.

Basically I can't stand up straight anymore too.
Back started aching due to the weight infront of me.






CONCLUSION, nurse was saying that it would be wiser to opt for c-section since baby is smaller in built, and may even rotate during birth which makes natural birth dangerous. End up might still get an emergency c-section which will cost 1k more.

We decided to opt for C-section and it will be on week 38, which is 11 August onwards.

Looking forward.
I have another 4 weeks to sleep through my nights.

Life ~

Nothing beats seeing them sleeping peacefully like this. :)

Was looking at some old photos mum dug out, and baby lee looks some what like my younger days. Round nose, round eyes, and round face.

My elder brother and I. Yes, the one on the right is me.

Is it still good for baby lee to look like me?

Hmm........ LOL!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME 2 ~

Bump Of The Day 

"That's Awesome"

Meet up with my favorite girl, YUHUI!!!

She was so excited to see my bump, and obviously it grew ALOT! I've gained 12 kg so far and baby is growing well. She felt slight kicks, or rather more like a lump, on my tummy where Baby Lee supports her leg. 

Baby Lee is a good girl today. I manage to eat quite an amount!

We were talking about life and realized how grown up we were now. Shopping no longer mean anything to us and we barely needs anything else. We don't go around buying everything we see anymore. Probably age did some magic, we are moving on to the bigger ticket item, like a house.

Hubbs and I agreed that Yui felt grown up, I wonder if it's the hairstyle or her dress. Or maybe, getting married and signing that piece of paper magically made a person change. Change as in, the heart settled down and we no longer face life alone.

I feel old ever since I got married. I don't know if any one else felt the same, but I see the word "OLD" on my face. Now, having Baby bean in my tummy makes me walk like a grandma, sit like a grandma, sleep like a grandma, and wear like one. 

WHERE IS MY YOUTH  ~~~ 

But, nope I am not regretting my actions. Just feel that life experiences really can make one grow. So before I end my day, Hubbs and I took some Polaroid so that I can punch them into the baby's album for keepsake purpose.

I'm 27th, and Hubb's 33.

We will be real parents in one month's time.

That sums up, and I secretly entered into my 27th year of life, a new beginning, a new form of happiness. I hope Baby Lee will grow up well and healthy! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

11 July 2014

27th Me.

33 Weeks 2 Days

47 Days to EDD

Hubbs and I, together with my Dad and Mum went to Crystal Jade for dinner. It's been a while since we had dinner together cuz everyone comes back at different timings.

I was surprised baby bought a long a bouquet of sunflowers for me.

<3 <3 <3

The flowers reminds me of our wedding and it's kinda heart warming although many many times I told him not to spend money on flowers because it eventually will die off, but his randomness brought some good memories for us back. How sweet of him !<3

I have nothing in particular to wish for except everyone around me to be in good health. 

World Peace. ^^V

Niki and Winter are still staying with me, (I didn't abandon them!)

I've been spending the whole day with them everyday, for the past 7 months. And I'm sure they are so happy with it until a point, maybe they find me irritating. I wake them up from their nap and insist to play with them. hahaha..... 

Here, Winter insisted to sleep on my big tummy, with his big tummy.

And baby Xuan keeps kicking from inside.

Happy Birthday To Me.

32 Weeks (Appointment)

No photos today coz baby is squashed up and, nothing is clear.
She had her hand on half her face, and umbilical cord all over the place.
We will see her in about 8 weeks.

Currently she sits at 1.77kg, smaller scale than usual but still within the range.
Doctor has finally confirmed that she can go on natural birth!

Next appointment in two weeks time!

Before we met the gynae, I was telling hubbs that maybe we should just go ahead with C-section so that we won't need to worry when the water bag will break etc. Hubbs says it's all up to me. And I was so confident that baby is still in breech position.

But the moment the ultra scan starts, the first thing gynae mention was "Baby has turned!" and my heart sank!!! And I started to panic, literally. I can feel the blood rushing into my heart and thumping very hard. But then again, I have told hubbs before that, if baby is good for natural, we will allow her to choose her own birth date. So, I MUST fulfill what I have said!

So, no matter how painful it will be, IT WILL PASS!
Feeling so determined, I told myself too that the pain will only last for at most 24 hours.

YES! I SHALL DO IT!

Anger Management

I need.

Have been frustrated easily recently on little things especially when some one drinks (and finishes) my green tea in the fridge!!! And, finishing Ribena at the same time.... AND I HAVE NOTHING TO DRINK!

Angry.

Wedding Photos

Notice I did not publish any wedding photos publicly.

Suddenly missing that period when I'm so busy arranging for our wedding stuff, photos and running around searching high and low for the snack bar and etc.

Suddenly all these became so-far-away memory.

Such a waste that Niki and Winter couldn't join us for this photoshoot.

And, looking back at these photos, I notice how slim I was back then........ COMPARING TO NOW.

After being single for a while, finally promoted to someone's wife, now a housewife, and going to be a mum in two month's time. How time flies. Wonder if I can do a good job in educating our child. 

Looking forward.

Things No One Told You About Big Tummy

I really need to pen this down.

As baby bean gets bigger, she kicks and digs around, and it CAN be felt. Especially. At. Night.

I can't sleep. 

But I'm one of the lucky ones whom didn't need to work, so I can take a nap during noon time.

But you know that awful feeling when you're so so tired but can't sleep? Niki, Winter and hubb slept like nobody's business and there I am, counting sheep. 

Another thing is SHOWER . 

I haven't been able to wash my feet lately.

Wearing clothes became a chore. Too.

All due to the bulging tummy.

It really felt like carrying a watermelon. I can't move too fast as the tummy will swing - literally. No you can't see it, but I can feel it inside. I can't bend down to pick things up (have to squat, which is super ugly). I can't cross my legs when I sit. I can't slouch, it will press down onto the bladder which is super uncomfortable.

So, baby, I'm looking forward to your arrival and all these will go back in place.

Another Baby Fair

I want to stab myself.

But it's ok, just another two months to go.

For memory's sake, here's a super ballooned me.

When water retention steps in, you can't do anything but to drink more water, AND DON'T WEAR MATERNITY CLOTHES!!!

Went to the baby fair and got the mattress for the baby cot. (FINALLY I FOUND!!!) And got some diaper samples for newborn. Here's my collection of stuff till date (excluding baby cot)

TADAA~ More to come in July.

Gaigai

Went down to meet hubbs for Dinner!!

And to find his planner/organizer at Taka.

Tummy of the day :D

27 Weeks 0 Day

Entering third trimester is a tough thing.

Currently at 27 weeks, 91 days to go.

Awesome.

More aches, more inconvenient and more complains & whines from me every single day. 

I can't touch my toes now.

I can't cut my own toe nails.

I can't sleep and toss left and right as I like.

I can't get up from the bed and sofa without rolling to the side.

I can't chase Niki and Winter anymore.

I can't bend down and pick things up within 2 seconds.

I can't pick the rascals up from the floor.

Winter's tummy touches mine before he can lick my face.

I can't hug my hubbs cos of the bulging tummy.

And I get kicked for no reason throughout the day especially during pee/pooping.

But all these became worthwhile when gynae merely says

"Everything Is Alright, Baby Is Growing Well!"

So, I hope for August to arrive fasterlyer.

Flight Attendant

I came across a friend via facebook, coincidentally working in the same airline with one of my secondary schoolmate. And they worked together, and became bff.

Small world.
But that's not the point in this post today.
Was browsing through her photos and start to feel envious of her/them.

Ever since I met Vinc, one of my dream was withdrawn from my life.
No, I'm not blaming him for this, but just the priorities in life have changed.

I use to like travelling, alone. (Yes I'm talking about travelling, not being a flight attendant)
I know it is dangerous, but it thrives me.
And my previous job gave me the opportunity to do so.

Travelling alone needs some courage. And it made me a more independent person in whole. I learnt to manage my time, pack my own bag, be responsible of my well being, take care of my lunches and dinners, make sure I am feeling okay both physically and emotionally, be wary of strangers and learn some "social street smart".

So, like I say, I was browsing through Ms J's facebook and see the places she set her foot in, and became really envious. I started imagining myself one day, stepping into foreign lands, looking at the places in her photos.

Korea, Sweden, Paris, Italy, Prague, Mauritius, New Zeland, Austrialia and so on ... And I came up with a conclusion.........





I CAN'T FLY SO MANY PLACES UNLESS I'M A FLIGHT ATTENDANT!!


So, well, let that 'dream' be only a dream.
I will sit in my reality.

New Year, New Me

MY NEW BLACK. 

Re-bonded and dyed my hair black.
No more white hair!

And finally I have long fringe again!

Work, Life, Balance

.... is one of the emphasis for this company.
So, we have flexible working hours such that staff can choose the most comfy period to work so that they can arrange family matters (ie: fetching their kids)

0800 - 1730 hrs

0830 - 1800 hrs

0900 - 1830 hrs

And if you need any special arrangement, discuss with your supervisor. And true enough, I have a colleague coming at 6.30am, knocking off at 4:00pm.

I decided to pick the same start work timing as my previous company, 8am. 

In the past I wake up at 6am, run out to catch the company bus at 7am.

Now I wake up at 5am, and catch the 6.30am bus at the interchange.

Knocking off at my previous company was at 4.30pm.

Here, at 5.30pm. 

I use to reach home at a comfortable 5.30pm, and now at 7pm.

 I use to get on bed at 10pm, now I started feeling tired at 8pm.

My life changed so much.
But I'm not complaining, just a comparison between two jobs.

I am stepping out of my comfort zone, so it's always tough at the beginning I know.

And now I have eye bags due to lacking of sleep.

Weekends became so precious.

But wait - I'm on Grooming course!

All my Saturdays are booked for grooming from 11am to 6pm. And Sundays, I alternate it. And to be frank, I am not feeling tired from the grooming. That's passion! It's the waking up at 5am part wearing me out. 

I'm really curious, how come there can be so much different in two jobs when one focuses on work life and balance but have equivalent or lesser benefits, than another company that just wanted to make more money?

But anyway, I'm still alive, don't worry. 

Hubby and I are working pretty hard to make sure we don't just make ends meet. 

Some happy stuff in my new job to look forward to, I've got a milk cup to become my pen holder.

Lastly something I always looked forward to; evenings !

Singapore can be a pretty place to live in, isn't it?

Advancing Education

Everyone knows that I'm only an O level person.
Nothing to hide about.
(Please don't look down on people that do not have a higher education. Some didn't choose for it to happen!)

Yes so I have a choice now.
Ever since starting my new job, today is one of the many days I felt hopeful.
Why? Because HR finally went through the staff-need-to-know stuff and they have further advancement courses both full time and part time, and this company highly focus on employee's well being. Both mentally and physically, and educationally.

So I'm lucky.
Please let me have a peaceful 3 months (probation) and I will work hard. :)

My Long Hair

I miss my long hair. 

And I miss baby Niki's long fur too..